“Grim flashbacks and bad memories.” – Hunter S. Thompson
Last Saturday was a bad day.
Despite what I thought was a good sleep, despite decent food, just despite all sorts of variables, things just turned to utter shit. It came from nowhere, deep in the subconscious ether of repressed noise. The gas had been poured without my knowing and it didn’t take much to strike a match. Continue reading “Fire and Flashback”
Without getting into a big thing on why I haven’t been posting here, this is more about posting something in general. This is a spur-of-the-moment bit of positivity and proactivity, as well as a glimpse of things to come.
It’s no secret to me or anyone reading this how much of what I’ve written about my mental health has been based on unhappy things, often with unhappy tones. And there’s nothing wrong with that. It’s important to be able to express those things. Continue reading “Changes (An Update / Short Glimpse)”
It should be as simple as picking up where I left off. Or even just starting anew.
Years ago I engaged in a home fitness program. For three months it went really well, on every level. The exercise, the healthy eating. The fitness outside of the program. Just my overall commitment was, looking back, amazing. Continue reading “An Example of Shame”
Had an intense massage therapy session this morning.
My left elbow has been hurting lately, but that’s not what we dealt with. My therapist worked on that arm a bit anyway. And quite frankly the elbow hurts worse now. Continue reading “Outer Tension, Inner Pain”
I won’t pretend I had a good night last night.
I won’t pretend that I sank into a sadness that left me laying on the floor.
I won’t pretend that I wasn’t inspired to leave the house.
I won’t pretend that getting up and driving to a local restaurant didn’t at least partially help.
I won’t pretend that the cup of peppermint tea made things all better.
But I won’t pretend it didn’t clear my head, at the least.
It felt good to get out of the house. To get up, moving, doing something, even if all I accomplished was reading some more of a book.
I won’t pretend that doesn’t matter.
© 2017 Day By Day Mental
Let’s talk self-improvement for a second. Let’s talk motivation.
There’s a metaphor that some people use for healthy eating: “Treat your body like a car. Putting high quality oil and gas helps it run its best. So why not treat your body the same by eating the best food?” Continue reading “Stocking the Fridge”
This is the first example of a series of thought pieces written in the moment. They will be created spontaneously, reflecting my thoughts by way of self-journey, expression and stream-of-consciousness.
My head is spinning. As I sit here amidst a battle for productivity and positivity I find myself spiralling down a rabbit hole of possibility. Sheer, unending possibility.
My web-browser becomes inundated with new tabs for things to research and read. In fact the tabs all reflect this very subject matter of spiralling rabbit holes of thought. A web search for “overwhelmed by possibilities” revealed the writer M.J. Ross. Beginning with her article (When You Feel Pressured and Overwhelmed by Possibilities) I briefly felt relieved to encounter somehow experiencing my same turmoil. Continue reading “This Moment: Rabbit Hole”